Wednesday, June 1, 2011

"That" mom...

I've become "that" mom.  I NEVER thought I would be a mom that would have so much trouble leaving her kid overnight or even for an evening.  When Megan was first born I could leave her for several hours at a time without thinking twice about it.  But I think the older she's getting and the more time I spend with her I'm having a harder time leaving her.  I left her with my sister all day when she was about 7 months old, but after that she hasn't been with anyone other than Byoung and I alone.  I know I should leave her for her sake and mine but the opportunities to do that just don't come up for us.  Both our parents work full time and our siblings are busy AND megan is not that easy of a baby.  SO we're together pretty much 24/7.

Anywho, Byoung and I are going out of town this weekend for a wedding and I've been getting anxiety over this for the past month or so.  She's going to be at our house with my sister and brother in law who I completely trust, but I keep worrying nonetheless.  Kids are so flexible and I'm sure she'll be fine but I can't help but think of all the little things that we do our way that won't be done.  My worries are ridiculous like, will she be ok if she doesn't get put to bed the exact way that I put her to bed?  Or will she be ok when someone else is changing her diaper?  All my ridiculous worries are ridiculous, I know, but I still can't help but worry.

I'm really going to try and enjoy myself and not worry this weekend....I'll let you know how it goes!  And please wish ME luck and say a quick prayer for all of us!  =)